Carrots, We Don’t Need No Stinkin’ Carrots

I was venting to Miss KT yesterday about a carrot that is dangling in front of my face and is derailing me from my career related pursuits. She asked me “Did you blog about this?” Of course I didn’t! What? Have you looked at my blog? It looks more deserted than San Francisco after the Apocalypse! Note to self, you created this blog to be a sounding board for your experiences as an unemployed TwirtyGrrl so maybe, just maybe you should share those experiences? Just a thought.

Here’s the story about that carrot. Late November/early December I was referred to an open position and interviewed for what I discovered would be a great job, a job that I saw myself in, for a company I saw myself being a part of, a boss that I saw as a coach and team leader. This was the job that would be the polar opposite of my last job, a job that was so terrible at times that I am still having nightmares. Well, I didn’t get the job. It was tragic and I was perplexed. What I came to discover was that there actually wasn’t a position, that offers had already been extended for the position and it would appear that I was brought in as back-up in case those offers went through. I was the victim of bad timing. I had been referred to an “open” position by an employee of that company that wasn’t exactly open any longer since an offer had already been extended, but I was led to believe there was an open position. That information maybe kinda would have helped me handle my expectations, maybe.

So, I blew the interviewer out of the water and I have heard time and time again from both her and the person who referred me to the position “As soon as we can add a new addition to our team you are #1 on our list!” Awesome right? Makes me feel good! The problem with all of this….when exactly is that going to happen? Is it ever going to happen? Who freaking knows! So it’s like a carrot that dangles in front of my face that I just cannot have. Even worse, I run in to that employee at networking events and she tells me AND shares that same quote with other people that I know so I get the double fun of hearing it out of other people’s mouths when I see them too! I kinda want to scream.

Anyone else holding on to hope of something great that is driving you mad because you can see it but you just can’t quite grasp it?

January 21, 2010. Tags: Blog, Career, December, interview, job, Job Search, Job Seeker, Networking, San Francisco, twirtygrrl, unemployed, unemployment. Uncategorized.